Welcome to my Live Journal. My name is Nakita if you couldn't guess. Here I will tell you a little about myself. I love Anime and Manga, my favorite anime are Fruits Basket, Bleach, Oran high host club and the Wall Flower. my favorite manga are Fruits Basket, Vampire Knight. I also like to play on Gaiaonline.com here is my Char. isn't she cute? ^.^

Why is it that life is so confusing? I try so hard and yet get nowhere in it. I make people angry without even knowing what I did wrong.. I cry without even knowing why these days.. My heart and my head constantly feel like they are on overload and I don’t know what to do anymore.. Why do I even bother trying?
Why is it that everything seems to be my fault these days? I can't even make my friends happy.. My closest friend always seem to be some form of angry at me.. And nothing I do ever fixes it.. What do you want me to do? Tell me, and you know I will..

Don’t worry everyone, I will be happy little Nakita next time you see me, like I always am....

oh my, it has been quite a while since I posted hasn't it? well, lets see... hmm... I had a pretty good summer. I hung out with my friends Karson, and Ashley through most of it (ok, ok, all of it hehe) anyways. o! did you guys get breaking dawn??!! I LOVE IT!! lol. I thought it was amazing! o, here is a pic of me dressed up for the party.


This is me as Lady Sepheria Volturi (haha, since Aro's wife was not named till the last book, my friend and I picked out own name for her ^.^)

This is my friend and I




He is Felix (loyal servant of Lady Sepheria, hehe)we had a blast! lol ^.^ ok, moving on.

lets see..what else happened during the summer...hm.. o! I am pretty sure I mentioned to you that I have been working on loosing wieght right? well, I lost 50LBs so far!! I know, I am truly amazed. lol hm...so I am back in school now, (I hate school) I am taking English 1010, math 1010 and a 4 credit art trip. lol hmm... uhm...lets see...there must be more...
o! did you hear about the twilight movie?? it got bumped up 3 weeks! so it now comes out Nov. 21st! I am so excited! lol
o! I started going to the college ward! lol its pretty fun, I met a lot of nice people there ^.^

and now the sad news, the reason twilight got moved up, is because the next HP movie got pushed back till next summer :(
uhm, my friend had to move because her parents evicted her (yes, apparently some parents are that mean)
hmm...my sister broke my cell phone, I am hoping to get a new one this week sometime *crosses fingers*
hm..my sister hates me, my family lies about my best friend because they dont like that he is gay. my family almost hates me anymore.
my sister pisses me off so bad, I just sit here, and she does nothing except shoot derogatory insult after insult after me -_- ...ya.... and I am trying to do the adult thing and ignore her...but...its....very hard.... *sigh* o well...

o....and the worst news of all......

My Gaia online account was hacked. the hacker got in, took 28k and 120 EXTREMELY valuable items......yes....I cryed.....I have had that account for almost 5 years....lost of blood sweat and pain went into it......so I finally got back in (silly me didn't think about the lost password thing because she changed my user name too. ^.^;;;) anyways, so I changed my user name back, but I went to PM my friend, and she deleted ALL of my friends.... again, I cryed..... ya.....so...anyways...now that I am depressed again...I think im going to go....have a good day....bye...

Natasha from the Maw Books Blog has a giveaway! You can win copies of The Host (5 winners), or the total Stephenie Meyer collection (one grand prize winner). isn't that awsome?? lol :P go here and check it out!

http://blog.mawbooks.com/2008/06/16/win-all-of-stephenie-meyers-books/

so.... its been a week. lol. My classes are going good. my history teacher is so funny! lol. but I have a test coming up.... I hate tests... um, my design class is going really well. I love it. the teacher is sooo nice! lol. I have been hanging out with my friends Karson and Ashley everyday this week. lol. for most of the day. I got into kind of a small fight with my parents but no biggie. its all fixed now. ^.^

uhm.... I've been having nightmares for the past few nights.... where all my friends just leave me and never talk to me again..... I think I would die if that really happened..... last night I had a dream that my friend Karson went into the hospital, I dont remember why, but I stayed with him the whole time he was in there. dreams are wierd, lol. just refere to my other dream entrys. lol.

O! so I told Karson the truth (refere to last entry) he was kinda mad at me for lying but its all good now, I got punished with no hugs for an hour. lol :P his punishments are funny, no hugs, no texting, Bleh. or a slap to the head. lol (which he has only done to me once I think.... lol)

on a sad note, I gained a pound this week.....I know sad.... I have been slipping up a lot latly.... lol. I just cant help it, Karson drinks so much soda, and its there sitting in the car between us...I just have to drink some.... lol. and my other friend Alisha was sad so we had icecream and brownies and chocolate to make her feel better.... I am kinda glad I only gained one pound. lol ^.^

O! the special eddition of Eclipes came out! yay!! lol but I could not aford to buy it yet, so I cant read the first chapter of Breaking dawn thats in it..... sad day.....lol

soo.... I think thats all! lol., ^.^ see ya next week!

So its been a pretty long week. lol. I started my summer college classes. they are not as bad as I thought they would be. the History class is actually really funny. and the design class is pretty easy ad fun. ^.^ we made potato stamps. lol. ^.^ I made one of mine with the kanji for "peace" on it. cuz I like it ^.^ ...and its the only kanji I know by heart. lol. it was funny, everyone wanted to use it. hahaha.

So this last week was the last week of work (because I work...worked... at the high school) so now I am unemployed....... and I really need to find a job.... its kinda making be depressed.... lol. o well.

I have been hanging out a TON with my new friend Karson. (the one who helped me with the twilight shirts) seriously I have been hanging out with him more then I have every hing out with any one friend! lol. we decided we must be joined at the hip. lol he is just so much fin to hang out with, I mean I dont think I have ever had so much fun with anyone just driving around town or talking. lol its just like its so easy to be friends, I love those kind of relationships ^.^ lol. mostly because I am terrible at calling people so if they dont call me or text, then we end up not hanging out much..... lol... its sad but true, I only think about calling my friends that dont text when I am really really bored.... like on saturday. lol.

Anyways, so I feel kinda guilty because I lied to Karson on saturday..... you see he went out on this date, (all day long....) and so I was trying not to text him much, cuz I thought it would be rude (we normaly text all day long,. lol) and I was going crazy from not talking to him most of the day!! not to mention none of my friends wanted to hang out, so I did my homework (bleh) and watched sappy lovey chick flicks all day.... which only made me feel more lonely...... lol.... but I told him that I was so busy on saturday that I barly even noticed that I wasn't texting him, because he was so happy when he got back, and I knew he would feel guilty if I told him the truth..... and I didn't want to ruin his mood, you know? ...ya, Idk... I feel like I should tell him I lied, but what if he gets mad at me?...... idk..... and today he isn't texting much either..... I thought I would not text him to see when he would text me first..... ya not working so well......... lol......now I feel all sad and stuff......

on a happyer note (I dont think I told you this yet, lol) so my doctor put me on some meds to help me loose weight (something I have a really really hard time with)and I have lost 15 pounds since ive been on them! woohoo!! ..ok so thats in 3 weeks.....but still!...normaly I can never loose weight no matter how much I exercise or how little I eat..... ^.^

(holy cow! I think this is the longest journal I've ever written!! lol)

O! BTW they have new pictures of the cast of Twilight!!

and here is the poster

and here is the trailer!!

Twilight in HD


watch it, study it, love it, lol. see that smile at the end, yep, thats the edward smile, thats why I thought I would give Rob a shot. lol. see ya!

lol, so wow.... its been a while...uhm.... what to say what to say.... lol, so during spring break I moved out. lol. uhm,.... my dad fell into a hole and ruined everything they did with his surgery so now they have to do it all over again.... but atleast we dont have to pay for it, it happened on association property so they are paying for it. uhmm.... I made some new friends, lol, we bonded over making shirts for twilight! woohoo! (we made 3 btw, one says "real vampires sparkle" one says "twilight" with a picture of the apple on the fron and "blondes may have more fun but Edward prefers brunettes" on the back lol, and the last one says "breaking dawn 2.02.08" on the front and "Bite her already!" on the back lol. I love them) so ya,.... lol.... other then that I am not sure much has happened....pretty sad... lol, college ended but I am taking 2 summer classes which start on tuesday.... lol uhm, my work is about to end (I work at the high school if you forgot, lol) and I just found out they will not need me there next year..... so I need a job..... bad..... hm.....so after carful consideration for Rob as Edward (in twilight silly :P) I think he will do a good job. ^.^ lol. hm...yep yep....... well thats all, I am tired, im going to bed. lol. night everyone!!

I just had the wierdest dream.

so I was at this super market buying grocerys around 7 or 8 (it was starting to get dark), and I won a bunch of things which was so cool. and then when I was checking out, the headless horseman came up to this guy out side and cut off his head. then he started for the door, I ran upstairs (because they were right next to me), but I didn't notice where anyone else went. after a few minutes I could hear him head up stairs so I hid up there. after he passed me I made a mad dash down the stairs, he heard me and started towards me, but I yelled up the stairs "there are 3 more poeple up there, and they are hiding the one you want!!!" there really was no one else up there...not sure why I said that either....lol. so I ran to my car and realized my purse was still sitting on the counter, so I looked around, it looked safe, I ran as fast as I could to the store grabbed my purse and ran back to my car, I just made it into my car when I saw him standing right out side my windsheild, I seriously thought he would break the glass and kill me too (I was sure he had killed everyone in the store)but he just stared at me. so I drove my car right past him and sped all the way home, taking a few detours to make sure I was not being followed.... just for safty.... lol. and then I woke up. wierd huh? lol....

Ok, everything went fine with my dads surgery. ^.^ He is going to be in recovery for a while though, he is safe at home, but he can't work (or climb up stairs) for like 3 weeks because he could pull out his stitches if he did.

on other news... I have a test today..... ^-.-^..... and then 2 on friday...... kill me.... but the good news is next week is spring break!! woohoo!!! lol. ^.^